In the midst of searching for somethings.
Yes, I am currently in middle of searching.
I can say it it might be a new job, my dreams, or what i really wanna do and even life partner.
--As some of my friends , already found their the one.
This time, I wanna write some noted to myself or anyone who might pass this blog.
"That 'Let's just try it' might be something you regret in the future, so think wisely and never rushed"
Pathetically or maybe FORTUNATELY I made some decisions impulsively.
I will always like said to myself "Let's try it. I'm not gonna get it anyway" because I have such low esteem. Some turned to be life-changing decision led me to new path. Some also punched me down. Lol. THING HAPPENED, TIME WON'T GOING BACK.
Rite now, I always ask my self before i say yes to something "Do I really want it?" "Am I ready for what might coming next?"
"Don't ever drag someone new into your life unless you've done with your ownself"
I realized this, after I felt like I have no one to talk to about what I feel, because you know some stories might be referred as Aib, and the one who i chose to talk to might feel uneasy or felt burden afterwards.
So currently I write down on a paper--that later i will throw--things what I felt, and pray.
Currently, I try myself to talk with my ownself as if I talk to someone.
See somethings from different perspectives. It helped me understand other's view and also it helped me to break down what was in my mind.
"Be ready for what might happened after you found the decision, and always think that it's the best way for you"
As a believer, I always remind myself to believe everythings has been arranged waaaaaay back before i came to this world by Allah.
It might be tough sometimes, but please give your logic a rest sometime and let your heart guide you to accept what already happened to you.
I found a quote from a supeeeer kind hearted sister I found on Youtube.
"Leave some spaces in your heart for Allah's surprise" - Aida Azlin.
