02:28 AM

Assalamualaikum everyone.
It's almost dawn in here. A quiet night, like always.

A few hours to go Eid Fitr. My first Eid Fitr away from home and family.
Spending the Eid Fitr eve alone in my room with Takbeer video from the youtube.

In this time, I really wanna tell the story of mine about the power du'a.

Whatever is prayed at the time of breaking the fast is granted and never refused. [Tarmidhi]

This Ramadhan, I was having some different experience than Ramadhan i had before.
I learn to tolerate more.
I learn to grate more.
I learn to only ask to Allah when nobody is around.

Scrolling to the social media, I found some dua that other people prayed.

 It was QS Yusuf : 4 and QS Thaha : 39.

She said when we recite the dua, Allah will send us a lovely and nice people around us. And we will look glowing.

i try to recite them, but never expect that Allah will grant my pray in really soon.

At the first time I recite that after doing salah. Somebody greet me with "Assalamualaikum" in a place that Muslims are rare. It was a muslimah in one of Shopping Mall in my town. I was so happy by only received Assalamualaikum. At that time I dont have much muslim friends in here.

After that i met others on the masjid owned my Indonesia government. A nice and heartwarming muslimah. I gained more family.

In the last 10 days of Ramadhan, honestly  I was getting lazier to do ibadah :(
Because of the time for sahoor is end up earlier, and the time for the breakfasting is getting late.
The weather which is getting hotter since it's an early summer.
And tired to stay awake until sahoor time.

Some problems hit me.
Of course I became so confused, and sad. A high level of sad that I cant even cry.
And I was so poor back then I own a very little of money that should be last for a week. Almost impossible to make it.

Then there's a post about dua that will help you to get your rezeki, remember if we talk about rezeki it's not onlyy about money.

It was QS Al- Waqiah. A surah about Qiamat Day and The honour of Al Quran.

I remember My Grandma used to ask me to recite this surah a lot.

At that day I try to tawakkal, and try to be grateful of what i've had.

I opened my refigrators, I saw some of food that can be made and will last for days.
I check my transportation card, there's some balance that could make it for my tranportation to go to work and even there's some spare more.

That day was raining not that heavy but it could soak my entire body if i ride a bycycle. So I decided to walk from my way back to home from school instead of taking a bus. I always have an issue with walking with a flat shoes on. But that day wasn't the other day. I feel so easy to walk that far. Maybe that's from Allah helps.

Once I get home I recieve a call for an interview of another job, and I also get another interview invitation on my email. See? Allah grant my dua in unexpected ways and beyond my expectations.

I dont know how the interview results are. But by giving a chance by Allah it's like you have another key to a door of rezeki. The key might be come to a wrong door, but you know the key will find the match door eventually.

Now, it's an Eid Fitr eve. I'm having a mixed feeling. Beside the joy about this glorious day I also have some things that bother me.
But I remember I have Allah SWT my one and only helpers.